Down the Rabbit Hole - Holly Madison

Down the Rabbit Hole

By Holly Madison

  • Release Date: 2015-06-23
  • Genre: Biographies & Memoirs
Score: 4.5
From 4,189 Ratings


The real, untold, and unvarnished story of life inside the legendary Playboy Mansion—and the man who holds the key—from the woman who was Hef’s #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door.

A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend. But like Alice in Wonderland after she plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.

But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex and the infamous parties, as well as what her relationships with her Girls Next Door co-stars, Bridget and Kendra were really like. Holly talks candidly about a subsequent abusive relationship, her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.


  • Avid reader

    By Snowynight66604
    Kind of boring mostly felt sorry for all the girls that lead that kind of life. I guess it’s just being young and stupid. Don’t recommend reading
  • Behind the Scenes

    By kittt katt
    I had previously saw reviews of this memoir online long ago and once I started binge-watching GND, I purchased the book and could not stop reading it !! (no really, I had to stop watching the program to read) Holly is so well spoken and well versed. And I love the Alice in Wonderland references. It was very intriguing to see the world from Holly’s POV and to know how she lived happily ever after. <3
  • Inspiring entertaining read

    By soxoeoaksoaodcfe
    I enjoyed reading this book it was very inspiring and interesting.
  • Great book

    By clancimitchell
    Genuinely loved hearing the stories of what actually went down in the mansion! Even tho I’m always #teamkendra this was a great read and better than her book.
  • Loved

    By HoeAbbyy
    So interesting I think I finished this book in 4 days
  • 👀

    By lddawgg
    Loved it!!
  • Loved it

    By Jade010299
    As a fan of the Girls Next Door I found this to be eye opening. When I watched the show I wasn’t a fan of Holly but following her on social media I became a fan through her love for Disney, HP, and spooky things. Truthfully I didn’t know reality TV was THIS scripted. I often found myself unable to stop reading this book and haven’t finished a book this fast in years.
  • A Blast from the Past

    By martty08
    Well written and fun
  • Early 2000’s lifestyle truth

    By 4tomotesReview
    I’ve always been so intrigued by watching the girls next door and following the girls afterwards. It was so nice to know what being in your 20’s during the pivotal time or being thin with big boobs and strutting your body was like. Very well written and makes me respect Holly more!
  • Down the rabbit hole

    By susannnaaaaaas
    Loved it & the pictures at the end