Down the Rabbit Hole - Holly Madison

Down the Rabbit Hole

By Holly Madison

  • Release Date: 2015-06-23
  • Genre: Biographies & Memoirs
Score: 4.5
From 4,125 Ratings


The real, untold, and unvarnished story of life inside the legendary Playboy Mansion—and the man who holds the key—from the woman who was Hef’s #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door.

A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend. But like Alice in Wonderland after she plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.

But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex and the infamous parties, as well as what her relationships with her Girls Next Door co-stars, Bridget and Kendra were really like. Holly talks candidly about a subsequent abusive relationship, her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.


  • Great book

    By clancimitchell
    Genuinely loved hearing the stories of what actually went down in the mansion! Even tho I’m always #teamkendra this was a great read and better than her book.
  • Loved

    By HoeAbbyy
    So interesting I think I finished this book in 4 days
  • 👀

    By lddawgg
    Loved it!!
  • Loved it

    By Jade010299
    As a fan of the Girls Next Door I found this to be eye opening. When I watched the show I wasn’t a fan of Holly but following her on social media I became a fan through her love for Disney, HP, and spooky things. Truthfully I didn’t know reality TV was THIS scripted. I often found myself unable to stop reading this book and haven’t finished a book this fast in years.
  • A Blast from the Past

    By martty08
    Well written and fun
  • Early 2000’s lifestyle truth

    By 4tomotesReview
    I’ve always been so intrigued by watching the girls next door and following the girls afterwards. It was so nice to know what being in your 20’s during the pivotal time or being thin with big boobs and strutting your body was like. Very well written and makes me respect Holly more!
  • Down the rabbit hole

    By susannnaaaaaas
    Loved it & the pictures at the end
  • I actually loved this book!!!

    By HottBoi562
    I wasn’t sure about this book at first. I mean it was a prior playboy model writing a book. Enough said, right!? Wrong! The reason why Holly Madison was the first in line of the “Girlfriend’s of Heff” was because she was smart and she was fast, and witty, relatable, and a fantastic person. She was always great to watch on “The Girls Next Door” with the other 2 ladies. After that show I had always hoped she would do great things. And of course she didn’t disappoint. She became relevant and she became a star all on her own! So she isn’t just another Playboy Model! She is much much more and I am so happy that she wrote this book about the Mansion Days and Beyond! I promise you will not be able to put it down like I was unable to! Thank You Holly for writing this book and can’t wait to read the next one!
  • This story i so cool and awesome I love it

    By Aria sosa
    But what I love more is the name down the rabbit hole that’s why I love so much and the story is so amazing
  • Awesome

    By bird away